This is my first post. I do not know yet where this blog is going but I needed to start somewhere. You see my baby turned 3 months old yesterday.
I set up this blog before he was born and I foolishly thought that I would be able to write often as soon as he was born. That is not how this turned out however. It turns out that having a baby takes up almost every free minute of your time at first. A few weeks ago I saw some friends who I have not seen in some time and who do not have kids. They asked me and my husband what we have been up to and we said "We have a baby". They looked at us as if to say "Well, is that all"? What do you mean, I thought. This baby is all encompassing. He takes up almost every second of my time. And when I am not paying attention to him, it is probably because I am being a bad mother and ignoring his crying so I can floss or brush my teeth or something.
This is real, I had this thought once. I was brushing my teeth downstairs in the bathroom after I had thought he had feel asleep upstairs. But I heard him crying once I started brushing. So then I thought, I am just going to be a rebel and finish brushing and flossing before I go and check on him.
He is a really good baby though. And things have gotten a lot better. I shouldn't say this, because he can probably read my mind, but he has stopped crying for four hours every night. He has stopped even crying for two hours every night. This new development makes my life so much easier. Last night my husband and I were able to watch and entire movie while he slept upstairs. This was huge. As of now, we have had almost a whole week where he went to bed by 9:15. A few nights this week he even went to bed during the eight o'clock hour. It is amazing!
I am a stay-at-home mom now. I like but sometimes I also hate it. I know that I am very lucky to be able to stay at home with our little guy, but sometimes it is hard. I am not used to not going to a place of employment. Sometimes in the midafternoon a wave of boredom passes over me, especially when it seems like we have just had our third session of kicking time for the day (this is when he lays down on a mat with baby toys that hang down above him and he kicks and grabs at plastic rings- a baby gym).
But lately he seems to really be responding to who I am so that makes it easier. What I mean is, now that is 3 months old he seems to recognize me and sometimes smile when he sees me. When he cries at night, I can pick him up and he will stop crying. It did not work like that when he was younger. He would just cry and cry when I picked him up at night.
I been a professional librarian for almost ten years. I have a bad habit. For the past ten years, when things have not been that interesting for me at work, I go home and search for other library jobs. Sometimes I apply and get hired at them too. I have had several more than the average number of jobs for a person my age. This is not because I get fired, I just get antsy, also my husband and I have moved a few times. So I am used to looking at jobs. I do it almost like a comforting tick. When I don't like something at work, I go home and google Library jobs and it makes me feel better.
So now that I am a stay-at-home mom, I revert to my old ways when things get uninteresting or stressful. I also do it because now that I have a kid, I am more determined than ever to pay off my student loans.
That is my story for now. I am not sure if I am exposing too much about myself. I probably am. I probably will try not to tell my mother about my blog, but inevitably I will. She will think I am giving people too many personal details and I think I agree with her, but I am still going to do it.
Yet I feel moved to write and I think this might be important for me. So we will see.
I set up this blog before he was born and I foolishly thought that I would be able to write often as soon as he was born. That is not how this turned out however. It turns out that having a baby takes up almost every free minute of your time at first. A few weeks ago I saw some friends who I have not seen in some time and who do not have kids. They asked me and my husband what we have been up to and we said "We have a baby". They looked at us as if to say "Well, is that all"? What do you mean, I thought. This baby is all encompassing. He takes up almost every second of my time. And when I am not paying attention to him, it is probably because I am being a bad mother and ignoring his crying so I can floss or brush my teeth or something.
This is real, I had this thought once. I was brushing my teeth downstairs in the bathroom after I had thought he had feel asleep upstairs. But I heard him crying once I started brushing. So then I thought, I am just going to be a rebel and finish brushing and flossing before I go and check on him.
He is a really good baby though. And things have gotten a lot better. I shouldn't say this, because he can probably read my mind, but he has stopped crying for four hours every night. He has stopped even crying for two hours every night. This new development makes my life so much easier. Last night my husband and I were able to watch and entire movie while he slept upstairs. This was huge. As of now, we have had almost a whole week where he went to bed by 9:15. A few nights this week he even went to bed during the eight o'clock hour. It is amazing!
I am a stay-at-home mom now. I like but sometimes I also hate it. I know that I am very lucky to be able to stay at home with our little guy, but sometimes it is hard. I am not used to not going to a place of employment. Sometimes in the midafternoon a wave of boredom passes over me, especially when it seems like we have just had our third session of kicking time for the day (this is when he lays down on a mat with baby toys that hang down above him and he kicks and grabs at plastic rings- a baby gym).
But lately he seems to really be responding to who I am so that makes it easier. What I mean is, now that is 3 months old he seems to recognize me and sometimes smile when he sees me. When he cries at night, I can pick him up and he will stop crying. It did not work like that when he was younger. He would just cry and cry when I picked him up at night.
I been a professional librarian for almost ten years. I have a bad habit. For the past ten years, when things have not been that interesting for me at work, I go home and search for other library jobs. Sometimes I apply and get hired at them too. I have had several more than the average number of jobs for a person my age. This is not because I get fired, I just get antsy, also my husband and I have moved a few times. So I am used to looking at jobs. I do it almost like a comforting tick. When I don't like something at work, I go home and google Library jobs and it makes me feel better.
So now that I am a stay-at-home mom, I revert to my old ways when things get uninteresting or stressful. I also do it because now that I have a kid, I am more determined than ever to pay off my student loans.
That is my story for now. I am not sure if I am exposing too much about myself. I probably am. I probably will try not to tell my mother about my blog, but inevitably I will. She will think I am giving people too many personal details and I think I agree with her, but I am still going to do it.
Yet I feel moved to write and I think this might be important for me. So we will see.
Here is a picture because I think every blog post should have a picture.
This is picture of our dogs Buddy and Bailey
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